Drug Rehab 2021 Round 2 – Addiction is real, it can be overcome

Name: Michelle
From: Pheonix, Arizona
Votes: 0

Addiction is real, it can be overcome

My childhood was ugly. My parents divorced and my dad did everything he could to destroy my mom. At the same time, he did everything he could to raise 4 daughters. At age 14 I was taken in to foster care. I will never forget that day. I had told the police I was going to run away; they took me to youth crisis to give my dad a break and for me to see a counselor. Later they called my dad, and while the phone was on speaker he said, “I don’t want her, she’s your problem now”. I could write for hours about all the experiences, abuses, and my life before it got to this point, but its not necessary. 6 weeks later my mom came to get me from foster care. She had no idea how screwed up I was.

My addiction started shortly after my 15th birthday. I learned that drugs numbed my confusion, and sense of loss or abandonment. This lasted until I was 19 and had my first child. I stayed clean 2 years, with a man who was beating me. I stayed thinking I would never let my son feel the pain of divorce. The last time he hit me I was left black and blue all down my left leg with a dislocated jaw. I finally left. I relapsed, again running from the pain of my childhood, and now my failure as a mom, and failure as a spouse. I went through 2 treatment centers over the next couple of years. I would get clean then fall back again.

October 13th, 2013, I finally decided I wanted more from life, and I didn’t want my son to grow up like this. I stopped using. I started counseling, and NA meetings. I moved into a sober living. It was hard, over coming addiction. I had numbed my pain for many years, never truly facing it. It took 5 years to get to the point where I wasn’t just going through the motions of recovery and started to feel like maybe I was a person worth loving, maybe I could be a good mom.

Today I have 8 years and a few months clean. I have a good job, my son is 12 years old, and he thinks I am a good mom. I have a relationship with my mom. I choose not to have a relationship with my dad. I get up every morning grateful for the life I built. November 23rd, I started college, because I finally believe I can do something more with my life. I want to show my son that hard work and dedication means success, and that college matters.

Even if I don’t win this scholarship, I hope you reading this gain hope. Hope that people can recover from addiction if they want to. Hope that pain can be overcome, and happiness can be a way of life.