Drug Rehab 2021 Round 1 – Life After Addiction, One Day at a Time

Name: Laura Lynch
From: corydon, Indiana
Votes: 0

Life After Addiction, One Day at a Time

LIFE AFTER ADDICTION, ONE DAY AT A TIME

Laura Lynch

University of Arizona Global Campus

April 22, 2021

Life After Addiction, One Day at a Time

I am not writing this essay to discuss my past life with addiction or to ask for sympathy. As my mother would say, “You made your bed now you have to lay in it.” I was 15 years old when I had my first child, I stayed in school and graduated. While going to school and raising a child, I always held a job to support us. At the age of 20 I had my second child and at 22 my third child. All three of my girls had the same father, and at such a young age we tried to make the “family” thing work. After 15 years I gave up and filed for divorce. I remarried and tried to be the best mother I could to my children. The second marriage did not last, and I was lost. After meeting a friend, I started doing meth to escape the pain I was in. I felt like it was my turn to “have fun” since I lost my teenage years to being a mom, working, and going to school. I was wrong and I was being selfish.

During these dark times in my life my girls were teenagers, out doing their own thing with their friends which gave me time to myself. My life slowly spiraled out of control, and I lost everything. I went from having a nice home, a nice vehicle, my kids did not want for anything, and they participated in every sport possible. I went from “soccer mom” to not going to games at all. My girls worked through the troubled times, they all graduated high school and have all since graduated college. On November 30, 2020, my life took a change for the better I guess you could say. I overdosed; my boyfriend done CPR on me until the ambulance arrived. I was not breathing, and unresponsive for several minutes. They gave up on me, and by the grace of God I came to. They had broken three of my ribs and crushed my sternum from doing CPR.

I spent four nights in the hospital then two weeks in jail. It was the most miserable time of my life, but I have been clean ever since and still going strong.

Life After Addiction, One Day at a Time

It broke my heart to look in my girls’ eyes and tell them I had a problem, because at this point in my life they had no idea. I kept this secret very well and learned to make excuses for the way my life had been going downhill over the years. That is one area you will always find with addiction; the drug is the most important thing, and an addict will say what they must to keep their head above water. My children lost their father to addiction in July of 2018. They should hate me for what I put them through, but they have been my saving grace, as well as God, through this whole mess.

With all this behind me, and my whole life ahead of me, I want to use my degree to help others who feel hopeless and trapped in the cycle of addiction. I want to be able to reach out to those seeking help and life. It needs to be known that the phrase “One day at a time” is more than words, it is words to live by when you are an addict. When I lay my head down at night and go to bed, I feel more accomplished than any assignment, essay, or discussion post I had to do for school. When I go to bed, the last thing on my mind is that I made it! I made it through another day without depending on a drug to get me up and going. I made it through another day without numbing the pain I was feeling brought on by myself.

I, as well as my youngest daughter have also battled depression and anxiety disorder. I feel that I have a calling to help others. I believe I had to go down the road I went down to understand myself and others better. How can I help someone battling addiction and mental illness if I have not experienced it firsthand? There is no book, no information on the internet, or any academic assignment that will teach me about addiction better than personal experience. I am living life one day at a time and I want others to know there is hope, there is life, and there are people out in this world that genuinely care and want to help.