Name: Peace Mcleod
From: Fort Smith, Arkansas
Breaking a generational curse
Breaking a generational curse
Generational curses are believed to be a curse such as poverty, addiction, or sickness that is passed on from one generation to the next. A good example of this is the oldest story known to man, Adam and Eve. She gave into temptation, forever anathematizing the human race which indeed, started with her. I am aware that I do not have a serpent begging me to eat the forbidden fruit of the garden. I do, however, live in a world where people can disguise not only themselves, but the substance their offering me, to make it seem like something I should want to do.
Growing up, my mother struggled with alcoholism. I can recall being a young child and not understanding how I knew it was destroying both of our lives, but she refused to accept it. My grandmother was also an alcoholic and my mother was never afraid to cast blame on her or others. I have missed out on Christmas after she stumbled into the tree and knocked it over. I have missed important school events when she would get drunk by two in the afternoon, meaning she could not drive or stand up. I lost the light that comes with childhood and instead had to learn to cope with a dysfunctional life.
My aunt was my closest friend when I was younger. She is twelve years my senior, but we still managed to have a very close relationship. After the birth of her first son, she was prescribed painkillers and developed an intense dependency issue. She would keep her supply up by visiting several doctors complaining about new pains she felt in her back, feet, mouth, legs. When that stopped being easily accessible, she resorted to methamphetamines. I watched firsthand as my aunt went from a fun, young, vibrant person to a confused, angry, and erratic drug addict.
I have several more family members who struggle with alcoholism and opioid addiction which in turn leads to financial distress. I watched the people I love destroy their lives. Instead of getting lost in the mess that addiction is, I took this as an example of what I do not want to be. I was able to see the effects addiction has on a person’s life without having to learn it for myself. I have a drive deep within me to fight for a future I deserve and not settle for less. I have an awareness and resistance. I do not think it’s “cool” to be addicted to substances at twenty-one, no matter how convincing my peers try to be.
My only hope now, is that my family gets the help they need. I hope to be successful and have a beautiful family of my own one day. I hope to make my family proud and prove that people like me, who come from such poverty and negativity, can have anything they want in life as long as they don’t let their parents mistakes define them. I pray that every young girl that is walking in similar shoes as mine, knows her worth and has hope and patience. Life got better when I turned into the adult I needed when I was younger, and I will forever be thankful for the life I was given.